Millie's Moving...!

Friday, 2 March 2012 10:29 Posted by Lil Miss Millie 0 comments
All - It's true I am moving...

... to a new website. One all of my own!

Check it out at www.milliebeanz.co.uk

See you soon!

M x

Mmm? 

Dash it all.

Monday, 16 January 2012 11:02 Posted by Lil Miss Millie 0 comments

One wonders why we bother at all
The harder one tries the further one falls

What is the point
What is the reason
Always unhappy season thru season

Going on, growing old
Supposed to be something better
Or that's what we are told

Bodies lying frail, abandoned, abused
Each wrinkle tells a story of life that has been used
Left lonely to wither, decay
Nothing more coming their way

Why would I want to wait so long
Before dying and ending life's sweet song

What is the point of getting old and infirm
No one to listen to the lesson we learn

I never asked nor chose to be born
It's unfair to struggle through life so torn
Full of love, torment and hate
What is the point, why should I wait?

One small slit, one cocktail of pills
Life is no more full of ill wills
One long sleep to finally slip away
No one to notice, no one to say

People poking through life that is bare
I won't be here, I will not care
Everything left ordered and neat
I won't be here, please let me sleep

Millie Jan 2012

Mmm? 

When..

10:57 Posted by Lil Miss Millie 0 comments

When that time comes
And there's nothing left to try
Remember that ole promise
Please just let me die

When no miracle has appeared
When all the hope has gone
when prayers haven't been answered
Please don't let me live on

If all that's left is machinery
Just beeps and tubes and wires
Remember that ole promise
And release me to the fires

Please don't wait and watch 
Me disappear, grow weak and fade away
just think and remember all the good times before this evil day

Memories will live forevermore
Like when we danced in the rain
Or the time at a party
Believe in laughter no more pain

When the time comes
And there are no more tears to cry
Remember that ole promise
And go, don't watch me die

Go on in to the future 
Walk fast your head held high
Just keep on going forward
There is a whole new life to try

Millie Jan 2012*

*after watching creator!

Mmm? 

Sticks n Stones

10:54 Posted by Lil Miss Millie 0 comments

Sticks and stones may break your bones

But words can rip and tear
Create hurt that was never there

Bones will fix and bones can mend
But words can turn your world upon end

Words can be vicious and words can be vile
Words shouted in hate words covered in bile

Words that are said not really taken back
In a relationship always leaves a crack

Words can be mean and nasty and spiteful
The venom which spoken forever is frightful

Stab you like a knife, deep inside
And once again a part of you has died

That old motto, think before you speak
Bear that in mind, and no one will weep

Mmm? 

Let's Not

Sunday, 1 January 2012 15:32 Posted by Lil Miss Millie 0 comments
Let's not

Let's not dwell on the past
It's gone, its over it was never meant to last

And

Let's not focus on the future
It going to happen anyway
Let's celebrate today!

Let's celebrate the here, the now and the present
Remember, for in the future we will repent

Let's not observe what is ugly, the unpleasant and the wrongs
Let's not interfere with other people, their lives and their going ons

Let us just stand, relax, take a breath and be still
Pause for a moment, close your eyes if you will

Savour this moment, this minute, this hour, it will not last,
for in a blink of an eye, it's gone, relegated to our past

Ready to be forgotten in our speed and our haste
Memories discarded like yesterday's waste

Don't panic the future will come along soon enough

And then.

We can worry about all that grown up stuff

But

Let's not forget the here and now
Just enjoy have fun, anyway any how!

Mmm? 

Many Happy New Easter 2012!

15:09 Posted by Lil Miss Millie 1 comments
Firstly, happy new year to one and all!

Unfortunately, due to another bout of sickness, I have once again been confined to the NHS for a period of time. This time was a new record of 17 days before escaping, I mean getting discharged!

For a change I was imprisoned in Leicester Royal Infirmary - Let me just say OMG!! And ye all the upper-case letters and exclamation marks were warranted!

I have had my eyes opened (& many other orifices but that is another story!) to lots of the inner workings of the NHS! For a supposedly Leicester Group there are marked differences between LRI and the General. I hope to never experience the Glenfield if that's okay! as that is mainly for hearts and so far mine seems to be working well!

I had pre-written a lot of this in my squiggle or handwriting about the cleanliness but having decided that I am not going to let things get to me - this blog will now be a lot shorter! However if you followed me on Farcebook you will already have played name that food & guess where the next needle is going...

I also probably do not make the most patient patient! But understand that I amused many people with my hallucinated texts and phone calls and apologies to those I scared. I would also like to have any interesting story lines sent back as these could be best sellers! I also want kudo for nearly reaching a temp of 40 degrees! 39.9 was my best!

However - to what I am really getting at -

I have also met some amazing people, there were the usual Angels & Demons, some amazing nurses and Doctors as well as some who just really....!

I also met some inspiring patients who are overcoming some terrible times and still smiling. Charlotte was the best friend I could have asked for, and really helped me come to terms with things as well as stopping me from getting low and sitting in my cave!

Which led me to meeting Matt Hampson (http://www.matthampson.co.uk/) & you have this in writing that I am going to dedicate some of my time this year to fundraising. I was also extremely grateful for the opportunity to take some photos and feel almost like my normal self! Well as normal as I ever was! So watch this space as I WILL be organising something!



I would also like to thank friends old and new for standing by me / putting up with me & special mention to Ze, Bob & Kate who would not let me spend NYE on my own in a grump!

I am not going to make any resolutions as it seems to set me up to fail, will continue to try to make the most of everything.

I would also like to make a quick mention to all the people who have helped me gain the confidence to get on stage and perform, as well as the fellow poets from The Stand and to the Core, Corby for all the opportunities and the chance to meet some awesome people.

Goodbye 2011, I learnt a lot - hello 2012 lets see where it goes!

M x

Mmm? 

Spaceship of Love

Sunday, 20 November 2011 14:23 Posted by Lil Miss Millie 0 comments
Circling around the planets above
A little green man flies the spaceship of love

Zooming around as swift as a sparrow
armed and ready with cupids arrow

he circles round, ready to strike
creating love wherever he likes

In the distance he suddenly spies
A sorry scene that hurts his eyes

He moves in for a closer look
His little world all a shook

A little mouse tormenting a cat
Well, he was having none of that

He took aim, and shot one out
a lasting love then came about

He crept away, a job well done
The cat and mouse, now lived as one.

Millie Nov 2011

Mmm?